Jessica Holmes, wife of beloved property show presenter Jonnie Irwin, has opened up about the devastating loss of her husband.
"I wish I hadn't seen it but I had to be with him." She recalled asking the nurses how she could help, feeling helpless as there seemed nothing she could do. She said: "But it is not peaceful. People are upset and I had our three little boys to manage. Even at the end, Jonnie didn't want to go. He was fighting to the last."
Remembering their final conversations she said: "I kept saying: 'Can I do anything? ' and he said: 'No, I'm fine.' How could he be fine? " "I feel like I'm still living in Jonnie's world. His friends are my friends now. He renovated this house."